Ugh, I’m sad... a show closing is like a death, there’s a mourning process. This one was special, my first professional clown experience, I wanted it, I trained, I got it. Beyond grateful for the experience, yet wanting more more more. Today I will go get my stuff and say goodbye to that gorgeous theatre, it will be sad, there is no way to get around that. So I will walk through that feeling with a smile for the simple fact that I did it, I got it done. Ugh, but I’m sad....
Monday, November 16, 2020
Heard the news today... she did not survive the shutdown. What an honor to have been blessed to perform in that room. You scared me but you were everything I in visioned. I trained hard to gain your your trust. Thank you for allowing be to share in your Grace. All the feels, all the everything’s, beyond words, you who have stood in this power understand what it is I intend to say... so I will just say thank you. Oh great, who blessed me with such a treasure, it was my honor to have been able to call you home, your essence and all of it, backstage, on stage, preshow show with adrenaline of let’s get this done, hear we go. Serving and being blessed with knowing the truth of that place of knowledge in how to serve... the strength in that showroom, are you not entertained?!!! Will miss you, but wow what you gave me, beyond a blessing, thank you, it was my honor, forever grateful, what a pleasure... oh the heart, how she can break when you know you have lost a true love... see you later DeeDee, perhaps or perhaps not, we shall see. And again one must dig for faith in knowing all will be and do as it is, new dreams, new visions, all with hope, grace and love. Trust in all again shows her face, trust in all, walk on, great warriors of light, we need you, light the way, namaste. Bye bye Zumanity
Friday, October 23, 2020
Here we are, close to 8 months in, of what I like to call a glimpse of early retirement, which I am no where near ready for. Staying sane or trying to is what my goals seem to be these days. Write that book, not inspired, do that new training, not inspired, do it anyway? I simply don’t know. Reading, walking, yoga, good food, tv seems to consume my days. Never been in prison, but I guess we all have a bit of a peek into what it is like when you are controlled in the sense of what you can and can’t do. I think what ways so heavy on us all, is no purpose, trying to stay patient, coming into remainIng grateful for all that we have, for we have so much more than others. There are good days and days filled with anxiety, do all the things they say to do, breath, herbs, be and so it shall pass and so it shall pass, Namaste to us all. Love will win in the end and we will be ok, we shall overcome, this I know to be true, remembering it is another thing. The life... cray cray isn’t it...
Sunday, September 27, 2020
Friday, August 21, 2020
The scream inside, the true self stuck in a cage wanting to get out, I have the key, paralyzed unable to unlock, witness, watching, waiting for the shift, when my eyes can see and the silence returns, the peace does come most days, on the days it does not, I wonder why, why do I allow it, knowing I am powerful, yet I suffer as I hear the noise, waiting, for this shall pass, it always does, and so it shall be, namaste.