Holiday Season 2023/ Daddy visit.
My dad was here, for me and perhaps for all, it is an emotional time, the bond with daughter and father, once he was my best friend, our roles changed as I grew and moved on but for him I remain that little girl. Distance kept him from getting to really know my adult self and I could not see the slow aging difference in him only to be blasted with this new old man before me. I grasp for connection as we are forever bonded, desperately wanting to heal old wounds. Yet time moves on and I discover the love is always there, I treasure the moments when I see the spirit of the Man and see that even though he is physically weak as well as mentally, the vibrant spirit remains. We can’t change the past, we cannot regret, then what is there to heal, is what it is, this tragically beautiful life, these souls grasping for connection, for peace. Through it all the love remains strong, perhaps the healing is as simple as acceptance. I love you daddy, Even thought I wanted you to try harder for health for victory, for all I wanted for you. You did your best, you try your best, you always brought sunshine even when it was dark. Your soul is amazing and I know that great things are coming for you when the transition comes. Each lifetime we learn at our own pace. I think the biggest gift have given me is acceptance for what is. In our life, as your little girl, you gave me the gift of play, of adventure, of laughter and all the fun things…. I love you forever in this and in the next. Your girl Marie. It’s a beautiful day and the sun is out shining. You did good daddy, you did good.
